Back after such a long time.. haven really had the time to pen down all the stuffs that i had gone through during this period of time. But well, since its the start of the new year, i guess its not a bad idea to get the blog going a bit.
To be frank, it hasn't been a smooth-sailing for me prior to enlistment. I feel that being in there for the few months had made me change my perception of many things. Being more matured in my thinking and to get along with ppl from different backgrounds. It is definitely not easy trying to accomplish all these especially with me not really good with words.
Though i know that words can't totally expressed the things that i am going through but at least it is able to allow me to just vent my frustration a bit. A new year, a brand new beginning? i don't know. Some positive side is that i have made some good friends in the army and we have gone through tough trainings together and managed to overcome them. Moving on to a new phase is not one that i hoped for but i had got no alternative. not sure if i am able to complete it but i just got to try.
In the new year, i have made several resolutions that i hoped will come true or at least some. For now, i shall end here and may everyone have a good year ahead.
Happy New Year!!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Saturday, September 13, 2008
New Beginning
This will effectively be my last post before i embark on the journey to the wilderness in tekong. don't really know how i am feeling right now. Sad, happy, excited? None of them is really able to describe how i am feeling. Maybe its a combination of everything huh. Its really ought to be the time when i should start to think differently and to mature. Before even going in, i am already feeling the intensity growing immensely. I guess that i still have to go through all these after all.
This paragraph is dedicated to all the friends that i have met through scouts. From a 13 year-old boy that have got no particular interest in anything in the first place, and to become a person that is able to take on a certain leadership role (maybe not being able to perform it to its maximum), i feel that most of the credit should be given all the leaders that have always been so passionate and persistent in doing well. Through all these years, i believed that I have greatly benefited from all of you. Its been working with all of you. Not forgetting the friends that I have made in the short time span as a leader. Going through tough and fun times, its certainly been a pleasure knowing every single one of you. It is not always about me giving, i realized that i had actually learnt quite a lot of things from you all as well. I believed there is always a give and take in life. I am definitely not a philosopher but i just got to say this: 'Don't be afraid to weather the storms and rain in life for after which there will always be sunshine next'.
I am really grateful having met all these invaluable friends and all the help that you all have rendered no matter how small it may be. It is still kept in my heart. I want to express a big Thank you to all of you. The advice that you have given me is of great assistance and had allowed me to venture even further.
Next, this is going to sound a bit emo. Though time is certainly not helping, i would just silently pray that things are going to work out fine. Courage is what i need now and it may seem a simple thing to others but to me, it proved so difficult. I don't know where to garner the guts to let my feelings be known. All those simple gestures meant a great deal to me. I am not sure if the first approach is gonna work but i would surely remember what was said before. All those comforting words indeed warms my heart.
Last of all, I would like to extend my thanks to everyone that have helped me and i wish you all all the best in all areas of life and that it is also time for me to move on to the next phase of life.
Some shots taken:
Take care everyone!!
This paragraph is dedicated to all the friends that i have met through scouts. From a 13 year-old boy that have got no particular interest in anything in the first place, and to become a person that is able to take on a certain leadership role (maybe not being able to perform it to its maximum), i feel that most of the credit should be given all the leaders that have always been so passionate and persistent in doing well. Through all these years, i believed that I have greatly benefited from all of you. Its been working with all of you. Not forgetting the friends that I have made in the short time span as a leader. Going through tough and fun times, its certainly been a pleasure knowing every single one of you. It is not always about me giving, i realized that i had actually learnt quite a lot of things from you all as well. I believed there is always a give and take in life. I am definitely not a philosopher but i just got to say this: 'Don't be afraid to weather the storms and rain in life for after which there will always be sunshine next'.
I am really grateful having met all these invaluable friends and all the help that you all have rendered no matter how small it may be. It is still kept in my heart. I want to express a big Thank you to all of you. The advice that you have given me is of great assistance and had allowed me to venture even further.
Next, this is going to sound a bit emo. Though time is certainly not helping, i would just silently pray that things are going to work out fine. Courage is what i need now and it may seem a simple thing to others but to me, it proved so difficult. I don't know where to garner the guts to let my feelings be known. All those simple gestures meant a great deal to me. I am not sure if the first approach is gonna work but i would surely remember what was said before. All those comforting words indeed warms my heart.
Last of all, I would like to extend my thanks to everyone that have helped me and i wish you all all the best in all areas of life and that it is also time for me to move on to the next phase of life.
Some shots taken:
Take care everyone!!
Monday, September 8, 2008
Moving on
hi guys, i am back with an entry.
Well, back from a physically draining annual camp but i feel that its definitely worth the effort. Right now, my mind is still fresh with the memories from the camp but i haven't got much of a clue as to where to begin. Anyway, the first highlight of the camp was the awesome structure that was built on the advance party. The designer is none other than chan loong. The final design was improvised several times before it came out as what it was.
The design required a combination of efforts from the leaders and committee members in order for it to be completed. Being part of this magnificent tower, i feel a great sense of satisfaction. In the process of building the tower, I have also managed to overcome several obstacles that i thought i would not be able to do initially. Moreover, the tower was built under the hot scorching sun just after a downpour. It was with the determination to make the camp a success in mind that allowed all of us to persist on until the completion of the tower. This tall and menacing structure not only symbolizes the effort of all of us, but it could also prove to be iconic.
Being involved in part of the patrol has also allowed me to see different sides of the campers. It is kind of heartwarming to see everyone working for one another and the passion to strive for the best regardless of success or failure.
Not forgetting the important people that made this camp possible, the camp committee. I believed that most of you are taking on main roles of a camp for the first time and have gone through ups and downs in the process. This is certainly a valuable learning point that you all could take along. Adding on to that, i would like to express my deepest thanks to you all for the special item that really came as a surprise to me. It was really nice of you all to come up with the item and thanks once again.
I guess all things got to come to an end eventually. Just a little bit of advice to everyone, ' Do everything to your fullest because there's no use looking back or wondering what you could have done'.
Best of luck to everyone!!
Well, back from a physically draining annual camp but i feel that its definitely worth the effort. Right now, my mind is still fresh with the memories from the camp but i haven't got much of a clue as to where to begin. Anyway, the first highlight of the camp was the awesome structure that was built on the advance party. The designer is none other than chan loong. The final design was improvised several times before it came out as what it was.
The design required a combination of efforts from the leaders and committee members in order for it to be completed. Being part of this magnificent tower, i feel a great sense of satisfaction. In the process of building the tower, I have also managed to overcome several obstacles that i thought i would not be able to do initially. Moreover, the tower was built under the hot scorching sun just after a downpour. It was with the determination to make the camp a success in mind that allowed all of us to persist on until the completion of the tower. This tall and menacing structure not only symbolizes the effort of all of us, but it could also prove to be iconic.
Being involved in part of the patrol has also allowed me to see different sides of the campers. It is kind of heartwarming to see everyone working for one another and the passion to strive for the best regardless of success or failure.
Not forgetting the important people that made this camp possible, the camp committee. I believed that most of you are taking on main roles of a camp for the first time and have gone through ups and downs in the process. This is certainly a valuable learning point that you all could take along. Adding on to that, i would like to express my deepest thanks to you all for the special item that really came as a surprise to me. It was really nice of you all to come up with the item and thanks once again.
I guess all things got to come to an end eventually. Just a little bit of advice to everyone, ' Do everything to your fullest because there's no use looking back or wondering what you could have done'.
Best of luck to everyone!!
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Its been exactly a month since my last post..
I know i have not been updating partly due to working commitments or maybe its just an excuse for being lazy. But well, nonetheless, i made an effort to log on now. There seems to be quite a few stuff to update but i got idea where do i begin from.
I am on the verge of ending my stint at the company where i have been working for several months now. Sense of reluctance is inevitable but there isn't much of a choice either. I guess life still goes on and just gotta live with it. Anyway, got to know quite a few people in the company recently and they are really nice people to talk to. They don't put on airs like what some might. I would say its quality time spent. Words of wisdom or maybe these are some experience that they want to pass down. I believed i have more or less benefited from it.
During this period, I also did experienced something different. I can't think of an apt description but i have really not felt this way before. Being put through a roller coaster ride i would say. Being led to the pinnacle and then letting you fall to rock bottom, sounds absurd but its true. That will definitely serve as a note to myself that i should start getting out of my comfort zone in order to strive for success. Its easy to say but not many are able to do that including me. For now, i am just going to see my remaining days out in the company.
But as I leave the company, that means something... NS is looming ahead. The calendar states that i have got less than 3 weeks before i head to Tekong sch 1. Don't know if its saddening or a joyful thing. Heard a lot from friends who have been through and those who are in there. I guess i should really start to get accustomed to doing things independently and not relying too much on others. Time for self reflection as well. It might be a good idea to rid off some bad habits and stuff. One thing i am curious about is how NS will affect me as a person. Just pondering on how different would i be before and after. Thats not for me to be the judge anyway. Just going to enjoy the rest of the days while i still could.
That's all for now. Enough of me ranting on. Take care everyone
I know i have not been updating partly due to working commitments or maybe its just an excuse for being lazy. But well, nonetheless, i made an effort to log on now. There seems to be quite a few stuff to update but i got idea where do i begin from.
I am on the verge of ending my stint at the company where i have been working for several months now. Sense of reluctance is inevitable but there isn't much of a choice either. I guess life still goes on and just gotta live with it. Anyway, got to know quite a few people in the company recently and they are really nice people to talk to. They don't put on airs like what some might. I would say its quality time spent. Words of wisdom or maybe these are some experience that they want to pass down. I believed i have more or less benefited from it.
During this period, I also did experienced something different. I can't think of an apt description but i have really not felt this way before. Being put through a roller coaster ride i would say. Being led to the pinnacle and then letting you fall to rock bottom, sounds absurd but its true. That will definitely serve as a note to myself that i should start getting out of my comfort zone in order to strive for success. Its easy to say but not many are able to do that including me. For now, i am just going to see my remaining days out in the company.
But as I leave the company, that means something... NS is looming ahead. The calendar states that i have got less than 3 weeks before i head to Tekong sch 1. Don't know if its saddening or a joyful thing. Heard a lot from friends who have been through and those who are in there. I guess i should really start to get accustomed to doing things independently and not relying too much on others. Time for self reflection as well. It might be a good idea to rid off some bad habits and stuff. One thing i am curious about is how NS will affect me as a person. Just pondering on how different would i be before and after. Thats not for me to be the judge anyway. Just going to enjoy the rest of the days while i still could.
That's all for now. Enough of me ranting on. Take care everyone
Sunday, July 27, 2008
My life is pretty stagnant right now. I really don't wish to carry on like this much longer. its nt the life i want to lead. being so oblivious to every other things and stuff, this is so unlike the usual.
Though there might be glimpses of spark at times, i still find it quite bored at times.
I guess its time to really venture on to strive for new experience but well, where would i actually start from, i do not know. Pursuing my dreams might sound a good head start but i wonder if i will ever be able to fulfill them.
Time for some self-assessment too. hopefully now would be a good time to really reflect on myself. Have i done enough or could i have done better? all these things are circulating around me. As much as i would want to excel, my mental strength just took over me unknowingly. you could tell that i am complaining a lot but this is one source to vent my frustration. I guess it is tough for others to understand unless you are in the same circumstances.
For now. just hope to enjoy the last month or so of freedom before the fast approaching date of enlistment. hope everyone's doing fine in their respective fields too.
Though there might be glimpses of spark at times, i still find it quite bored at times.
I guess its time to really venture on to strive for new experience but well, where would i actually start from, i do not know. Pursuing my dreams might sound a good head start but i wonder if i will ever be able to fulfill them.
Time for some self-assessment too. hopefully now would be a good time to really reflect on myself. Have i done enough or could i have done better? all these things are circulating around me. As much as i would want to excel, my mental strength just took over me unknowingly. you could tell that i am complaining a lot but this is one source to vent my frustration. I guess it is tough for others to understand unless you are in the same circumstances.
For now. just hope to enjoy the last month or so of freedom before the fast approaching date of enlistment. hope everyone's doing fine in their respective fields too.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Random random
Just happen to realise that i haven't been blogging for quite some time huh?
but well, life still goes on anyway. Been through quite a rough patch recently. Things nt really running smoothly and nt being in the best of moods. not sure if the problem lies in me. Working life seems boring but then again, sometimes office politics might nt seem a bad idea to spice up a little. makes working just that little more interesting.
Then again, get to see some really unglam acts of ppl which gets on my nerves sometimes. Speaking at the wrong time is totally unnecessary. Guess this is the harsh realities of working life and it happens all the time. but then again got to know some nice friendly ppl also. Apart from working life, there is nothing really much except waiting for army. Its getting nearer with each passing day.
And oh ya, SPAIN are the European champions. Pretty football still does the job, too bad for the germans, you not just not good enough.
With some friends who are in the army, hope that you guys are still doing fine and those who are going in soon, good luck dudes!! To others, live your life till the fullest:)
but well, life still goes on anyway. Been through quite a rough patch recently. Things nt really running smoothly and nt being in the best of moods. not sure if the problem lies in me. Working life seems boring but then again, sometimes office politics might nt seem a bad idea to spice up a little. makes working just that little more interesting.
Then again, get to see some really unglam acts of ppl which gets on my nerves sometimes. Speaking at the wrong time is totally unnecessary. Guess this is the harsh realities of working life and it happens all the time. but then again got to know some nice friendly ppl also. Apart from working life, there is nothing really much except waiting for army. Its getting nearer with each passing day.
And oh ya, SPAIN are the European champions. Pretty football still does the job, too bad for the germans, you not just not good enough.
With some friends who are in the army, hope that you guys are still doing fine and those who are going in soon, good luck dudes!! To others, live your life till the fullest:)
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Intriguing Memories
hi all, been some time since i last blogged so this post shall be a summary of what i had been busy with recently. June for me so far has been a relatively fulfilling and satisfying month so i shall rid off the usual emo-ing posts and instead share some wonderful experience with all of u.
As mentioned in previous posts, was out of town for about a week or so at the end of may till the beginning of june period and this trip has indeed brought a number of first times to my life and they had been fabulous first times. The series of events that i had been through for the trip is indeed one that i would nt have experienced if i had sticked to my initial plans.
The only negative point that i felt was the long bus rides that wasn't really that comfortable but well, it only make a tiny part of a hugely exciting trip. most importantly, i think that the people that had gone for the trip were highly hyped-up which naturally brings out the fun. With these ppl ard, time seems flying pass. Some highlights of the trip included the genting theme parks and the four wheel drive which literally got me grabbing on for my life.
Oh genting... hmm.. one of the many first times... it was my first time up there and the weather there's chilling. A pity the weather didn't really did much favour at first. It wasn't really what i did expected but well, i did do quite a few different rides. The deepest impression that i had was the SPACE SHUTTLE which i managed to have a go and most of all, it was this ride that i had my most dreadful expression. argh!! nowhere to hide... lol.
Would anyone believe if i tell u i had intended to pose for the camera? It's really heart throbbing up there and at the instance when the ride was going down at free fall, i was literally off my seat.
NOT FOR THE WEAK AT HEART!!!
The subsequent days were mostly visiting the different places in KL and shopping. Did manage to get a some stuff in the end. It ended on a high note where all of us left M'sia. Managed to get along with ppl younger but i guess there isn't much generation gap between.. hopefully..
Had a great time with all the ppl and its a pleasant experience before i really get into NS which i don't know what's gonna happen. Nt going to think abt it at the moment and enjoy the time that i am left with.
Anyway to everyone enjoy what u all are doing!!
As mentioned in previous posts, was out of town for about a week or so at the end of may till the beginning of june period and this trip has indeed brought a number of first times to my life and they had been fabulous first times. The series of events that i had been through for the trip is indeed one that i would nt have experienced if i had sticked to my initial plans.
The only negative point that i felt was the long bus rides that wasn't really that comfortable but well, it only make a tiny part of a hugely exciting trip. most importantly, i think that the people that had gone for the trip were highly hyped-up which naturally brings out the fun. With these ppl ard, time seems flying pass. Some highlights of the trip included the genting theme parks and the four wheel drive which literally got me grabbing on for my life.
Oh genting... hmm.. one of the many first times... it was my first time up there and the weather there's chilling. A pity the weather didn't really did much favour at first. It wasn't really what i did expected but well, i did do quite a few different rides. The deepest impression that i had was the SPACE SHUTTLE which i managed to have a go and most of all, it was this ride that i had my most dreadful expression. argh!! nowhere to hide... lol.
Would anyone believe if i tell u i had intended to pose for the camera? It's really heart throbbing up there and at the instance when the ride was going down at free fall, i was literally off my seat.
NOT FOR THE WEAK AT HEART!!!
The subsequent days were mostly visiting the different places in KL and shopping. Did manage to get a some stuff in the end. It ended on a high note where all of us left M'sia. Managed to get along with ppl younger but i guess there isn't much generation gap between.. hopefully..
Had a great time with all the ppl and its a pleasant experience before i really get into NS which i don't know what's gonna happen. Nt going to think abt it at the moment and enjoy the time that i am left with.
Anyway to everyone enjoy what u all are doing!!
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