In search of something

Back to update on recent happenings...
Well nothing really much happen or fascinates me except waiting for that letter. and yes its THE letter. That has since allowed me to cultivate another hobby and that is to open the letter box few times a day. something really is lacking until i get that letter.
Still in the same dilemma which i have been for quite some time... which to choose???
One offers shorter travelling distance and hence more convenient BUT at the expense of not being able to cope. The other would take longer time but maybe more suitable for me. Can fully understand ppl who reach a point in life when they have to make a major decision which could either make or break your life. Mine is no different now. Don't want to end up regretting and making the wrong choice. That could really turn serious.
The day to make a decision is nearing each day but that just make me even more confused. Why can't there be an ideal choice but well, never will there be in life cos if there is, there would not be anyone fretting over so many things.
Meanwhile, i got to just get a clear mind and think carefully. Got to make a decision in the end and hopefully i will and its the correct one.
Other than these two things that are bugging right at this moment, things seem pretty ok for me. Working in CBD area isn't really that bad except every morning where u just got to find a place to even stand in the jam packed train. That can be an unpleasant experience. Just got to bear with it for the moment.
Anyway to sidetrack a bit, there are some things that i would want to do before enlistment. One maybe to go for a holiday and one place that i would really like to go is Taiwan. was told that its a nice place and from many programmes that i watched, it really is a good place for a holiday.
Before i end my post, to all those taking exams, study hard and do well. For those who are working, well enjoy your job.

Waiting

Kinda lost my sense of direction in life temporarily. nothing to aim for and just plain waiting everyday. its indeed a waste of time isn't it? work is just routine as usual and boring but then again when is it ever interesting when you are working at least for me. Well some may beg to differ but that's part and parcel of life. can't really do much abt that.
i really kind of reminisce schling days. i would say that it is definitely more enjoyable than sitting in front of the monitor trying to figure out something that i don't even have a clue on. At least if i seriously don't understand a thing in class i could still consult friends or lecturers but in the working field, its a do or die situation.

I could still remember what some people told me when i was still studying to enjoy while you can and that when i go out to the working world, every thing's gonna change. Reflecting upon these wise words which i couldn't even bother listening at that time, its indeed true.
but i m definitely going to heed this advice two years from now in uni though i know its tough. Speaking of this, i suddenly feel that age is catching up on me. i don't want to reach the 20th mark just yet. there are many things that i have yet to accomplish. Life is full of regrets and mine is not much different or maybe even more regrets.
Having just a plain childhood is perhaps one big regret. many 'shoulds' and 'shouldn'ts' just surfacing my mind. Looking at myself now, i realised that i hav nothing to offer, no talents to flaunt and just a very ordinary person. being musically inclined is definitely one of my wishes though i know its hrd given that i m going to be old soon!!
i simply envy those who are able to play different musical instruments. they are just so talented and cool. i guess i m will just be a nobody and carry on with my monotonous life.

Here's something to share:

There's this nurse and a woman in labour in the lift. The nurse had no choice but to deliver the child in the lift. After delivery, the woman just kept on crying and this bemused the nurse. Their conversation as below:

Nurse: why are you crying, u got urself a baby boy

Woman: sob. it's so embarrassing.. there are so many ppl in the lift looking at me giving birth.

Nurse: Giving birth is a natural process, whats there to be embarrassed

Woman (continue crying): how am i going to face other ppl in future?

The nurse tried to console the woman...

Nurse: Last year,there was one lady who was worse off than you, she gave birth along the roadside and there were even more ppl looking and crowding ard.

When the woman heard this, she cried even louder

Nurse: what happened, u pity her too? why are you crying even louder

Woman: That lady was also me!!!

To everyone, enjoy your day!!!

Friendship

well... just been through a roller coaster ride these few days and i m really relieved that it is over... i shan't elaborate further since its something personal.. maybe i was just wrong in my accusation.
Anyway its update time... got to meet up with a few friends on fri.just update on wat they have been doing and stuff la. i must say that their job is really one that i would nv imagine them taking up but its all for the monetary purposes. at least it is well paid and the job is rather slack.
anyway hope that there will be more catching up time before the guys get enlisted. still no enlistment letter for me. haiz. another thing that i m looking forward to is the graduation ceremony on 29th may. Though i m not receiving any major awards, to me, it will be the beginning of another milestone of my life which should be of a certain significance. It may also be the last time stepping into np.
today went for bowling at some civil service club or smething. just happen to be going for quite a few bowling competitions recently. anyway the objective is not to ace the competition but rather just for leisure and fun. it most important that all of you enjoyed the game though maybe a prize or two might spice up the enthusiasm, it is secondary.managed to play a game as well.
personally, i feel that i have been living my life quite meaningless and that it is time that i do smething abt it. maybe its time to learn new things or do smething out of the ordinary. it has been just working for me over the past month and life will go to waste if i don't make full use it. well its just a thought that i suddenly gotten.
anyway to all, enjoy your weekend!








view from the office where i work...

Past and Present

Hmm... well here i m with another entry.
Since the end of my last paper in np, there have been things to look forward to and its almost ending rite now before the final nail on the coffin. Argh!! guess wat, its the NS letter!
On the other hand, got the offer letter from NTU yesterday and well its the same story as NUS. environmental engineering, not again! just unlucky to be born in the dragon year, just have to compete and compete, really getting sick of it.
Don't really know which offer to take up and i m seriously in a deep dilemma. Can someone give me some advice?
Chem eng was wat i want initially but well since my hopes are dashed now, i got to make do with my other alternative. Nt gonna think abt it just yet or rather too confused at the moment. i dunno if i should be happy or nt. At least i m able to get into uni which was one of the most sought after targets in my poly life.
As stated earlier, it now boils down to the last letter. still unsure of the date of enlistment or rather m i left out of the list. well just being random. i guess most of my friends are also awaiting for this sacred moment. Anyway before everyone leave for their different pathway lies the graduation day. For me i feel these three yrs just happened in a flash.
Maybe good times just do not last. There are still a few things that i thought i should have done.
Joining a cca in np which can widen my circle of friends. Through the 3 yrs, i guess the only friends that i have is only confined to people studying in the same course and some whom i managed to meet along the way through different modules with mixed courses. At first impression my life in np may seem restricted but well i really did managed to know some wonderful people especially my classmates.Lessons were enjoyable and fruitful. From totally strangers to good friends, i guess its nt so bad afterall. This will be always be a wonderful memory.

Junctions in life

here i m sitting in front of the screen, many different thoughts running through my mind and i suddenly feel so lost... dun really know how to describe that kind of feeling... is it a sense of emptiness in me? well i m nt sure abt that... but one thing that i m definitely positive is that i really prefer studying than working although the former can be stressful at times. but u dun have to face so many different ppl with all sorts of characters.
I miss the schooling days where u just hav to do ur part in studying and fun with friends nt having to bother abt other things. working life is just plain boring and taxing but what can i do abt it huh? its just the same old things nowadays for me without much of a freedom. I wouldn't want to even imagine the time where i really step out into the working society. if i were rich enough, i would most likely migrate somewhere that is by the sea with beautiful scenery and nt having to face this cruel society. but well, how many 'ifs' would actually come true. most probably none i bet.
these are some of the thoughts that i have garnered over some period of time especially during the last semester of my poly life when i was still coping with the dreadful fyp. however bad it was, i managed to pull through afterall.
there's no turning back now and i just gotta look forward to the future although the path is still unclear. i m just going to take a step at a time and see where it eventually leads me to and i can't regret since it is the path that i have carved out on my own.
Well shall end my post here and wish everyone in different phases of their lives the best of luck in whatever they do!

Start Afresh

Since this is the first entry, it should definitely be one that is quite eventful. It is indeed a memorable one for me. I have always wanted to keep track of wat i have been doing through my whole life but i nv really got a chance due to many different reasons or maybe just finding excuses. It is only now that i have the opportunity to really make the effort to create an acc in case i become sensile one day and even forget who i m.

At least i can take a look at this to recollect my memories ( That if i even rmb that i have got a blog). To kick start things, i really appreciate for wat u all have done for me. If u all do not know who the 'u' i m referring to, it is actually the bmss scouts that i really meant. The video was fabulous and with the artistic cards that came along, i can only say that i m really touched. Not to mention the excellent performance that u all put up earlier which i believed had caught many teachers by surprise. Well i can say that it is not a surprise but rather the numerous amt. of effort that u all have put in.

It has really been a great pleasure knowing all of u and being able to go through the ups and downs and eventually mold u to what u are today. U all will soon be polished diamonds shining in your own rights.

So much for personal feelings, now to a lighter note. It is really a tiring day for me having to complete so many things and here i m typing my first entry, my eyes isn't really helping me at all. I feel as if my eyelids are going to close any moment. Many things are going through my mind at this moment and i shall leave it to the next post when my malfunctioning brain can work better.

For now, that's all from me.